When Life is a Mess

It’s been a “why?” week at our house.

Why does God allow this or that?

Why is God silent when we desire more than anything to hear from him?

So that is that. That’s where we are. I have no answers. I can only wait.

Well, sometimes my life just don't make sense at all
When the mountains look so big,
And my faith just seems so small 

So hold me Jesus,
Cause I'm shaking like a leaf 
You have been King of my glory 
Won't You be my Prince of Peace

And I wake up in the night and feel the dark
It's so hot inside my soul
I swear there must be blisters on my heart

So hold me Jesus,
Cause I'm shaking like a leaf
You have been King of my glory 
Won't You be my Prince of Peace

Surrender don't come natural to me 
I'd rather fight you for something
I don't really want
Than to take what you give that I need
And I've beat my head against so many walls
Now I'm falling down, I'm falling on my knees…
--Rich Mullins, Hold Me Jesus